Rakuyou_Tenshi's Xanga

The End of One Year and The Beginning of Another

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 07:23:17 GMT

'08

The start of another year. I haven't written in this in forever. >_< there are reasons of course. Many college is very time consuming. But now, just 2 days before I leave for tech I'll think back to the first semester of college and '07.

College taught me alot (duh) and changed me in many.

The obvious...

=> I no longer have a normal sleep schedule. 2am is early. 10 am is early. 2pm or later is a good time to wake up especially weekends. No one is awake earlier.

=> There exist 3 meals a day... 'breakfast' at 12pm, lunch at 6, and dinner at 12am. I love my life. -_-;;

=> High school and ap classes really didn't prepare me much for college or maybe it's just the rigor of my school. getting a A is almost impossible. pass/fail is awesome. =D thank fully I might not have to go to grad school cause my gpa won't be pretty. I kind of wished I had gone to a magnet school or private school at times.

=> I know NOTHING about computers or famous people >_<

The not so obvious...

=> Image changes with surrounding... it really does. I've seem it happen.

=> Sleep isn't necessary.

College really is a time to take chances and make laps.

Living in close proximity with others is really fun and awesome!! I love the close, house system structure of tech. =)

7 was the year that everything changed. High school was a safety net. I knew my place. I just had to follow it. The expectations and bars are already set. College is like the ocean. Everything changes. At the moment I really don't know what I want to do with my life anymore. In that manner, tech is like bubble, a strange twisted utopian society. Payment is out of D-bal. Dinner, breakfast, and snacks are already paid for. Everything else is out of D-bal. There is no tv. No really outside newspaper. If the world got attacked by UFOs, I wouldn't know it.

I can actually see the stars in Pasadena. A meteor shower is awesome. The desert is really cold at night. Risk taking is fun. TAs are your best friend. =)

My new years resolution...

the obvious...

=> lose weight

=> try to sleep more

=> stop procasinating

=> don't fail anything 2nd term, end with a good gpa 3rd term, find something to do during the awful long summer

the unobvious...

=> take risks

=> try something new

=> find my passion

House of Leaves is awesome!! Everyone should read it.

signing off...

Flashback of college life

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 02:49:07 GMT

2 weeks of classes down.... 3 yrs, 2 terms, and 8 weeks more to go. AHH!! soo long.

from the beginning

Orientation was fun and overly long and tiring.

they shipped us off to a Marriot Hotel in Ventura. It would have been more fun had it not been for the insane amount of lectures and more free time i would have been happy. Though I was solely amused by our team going to the finals with a boat made from simply a plate and a balloon. haha. the bonfire + s'mores were awesome. the scavenage hunt to teach us how to study was awesome!!

then we returned for more lessions, awesome yummy bar-b-qs and a day in LA. Followed by many walking trips to target and such.

then classes + rotation.

Classes are stressful, long and some very boring.

Math is taught by a russian guy and he talks sooo fast!!
Chem is boring. Too much homework not enough time to do it plus on the annoying part of chem. Electron nonsense.
Physics is disappointing. It's taught by a old guy who's gone partially senile and tells more stories about famous scientists, shows us footage from his Mechanical Universes that he made and doesn't teach us physics and excepts TA's to do it.
Hum is O.O Philosophy is ... ><
Fencing is awesome.
Chem 3A aka chem lab is horrid. The TAs' are soo mean and are making me hate chem labs. =( It's very disappointing and its from 7-10 wed and thursday.

Rotation was awesome fun. Trying out all the 8 hovses, meeting new people, eating free food though we're on declining balance now. Go MOLES!! =)

For now that's it...

must do cal... annoying induction and series and sequences.

signing off...

the start of something new

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 03:46:50 GMT

tomorrow I leave for Cali. Wow! Finally my overly extended summer is over. Time to be independent. Time to get use to earthquakes. >_< Time to see the pacific coast again. Time to start 4 years of college life. Time to die of over extended hours... 20 as of now without chem lab which must be added. Yes I will crash and burn.

The fact I jammed my foot is also not a good sign. It hurts. =(

planning... ambition... success

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 13:37:26 GMT

summer is definitely not getting any shorter...

still got 1 month and a half left of it. Although yesterday was a blast!

a fun filled day at galveston with San San, Vickie, Thais, and K.

Kroger sandwich shopping was amusing. Never knew bread, meat, cheese, and lettuce could cause so many arguments. Still think romaine does not equal lettuce. >_< they don't even taste the same.

Galveston beach was fun despite the hot, ovenlike sun cooking us into raisins. Built awesome sandcastle. =)

Now must content with sun burns. >_<

signing out

I'm losing my effing mind...

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 14:52:06 GMT

A long belated post from my trip in China.

The 40 days was awesome!! Tibet was fun... despite spending half if on a train there and the other half looking at Tibetan temples! It was soo pretty though.

Xi'an was kind of a disappointment. Spent majority of the time looking at old ancient chinese artifacts from various time periods. might i add those artifacts were (ceiling, wall, floor pieces/ or pots and pans). The Stone Warriors were pretty cool and so was mountain climbing one of the steepest mountains in the world. (it was basically like climbing a ladder). ><

JuZhaGuo was pretty. Lakes, rivers, mountains and trees plus blue skies (kind of rare in China with its insane number of people) but it got boring after spending less than 10 hrs there. It was basically same thing over and over again.

The other half of the time I spent with family- eating out, shopping (too much clothes shopping), watching tv, or admiring houses <= that's a big thing with my relatives.

China was fun. Everyday kept me occuplied. Now I'm bored and losing my mind. I spend everyday doing nothing... it's causing me to have bad BAD thoughts about next year...

it hasn't helped everywhere I've gone in china... my relatives are worried that I'm going so far away without really knowing anyone... haven't even seen the campus yet. >_< Not to mention never been that far away without parental supervision.

I swear. I think reality is hitting me... since I have nothing to do right now but ponder. AHH!! Will I fail? It doesn't help when i look at my schedule and see all the classes i have to take (math, physics, chem, chem lab, humantities, p.e., frontier semiar class and maybe foreign language elective) >.< that's like 7 maybe 8 classes! AHH!!

Then the whole dorm thing... what if I don't like my room mate? what if we don't get along? maybe i'll get a singles room... but what if i get a triple room?

it doesn't help we're flying to vegas... then driving to pasadena. thus i can't really bring much. >_<

Then the fact i won't know anyone. T.T It's been 7 years since I've been in this position. For 7 yrs i've found and established my comfort zone... found a place. Now I have to start from scratch... what if I don't fit in? what if I find out after 4 yrs I despise science and math? then what am I suppose to do? then there's my friends now... what if we grow apart... what if i get overly homesick... i can't really come home til mid december. what if i'm miserable for 2 and half months.

I swear... being alone in this big house without anything to do... it's really affecting my mind.

Oh yeah. Hp7 was really good. Though the ending.... err was... last ch seemed off. The last phase of the book appeared maybe rushed/ logic not her typical logic. Won't go further not want to ruin it for anyone.

Signing out...

A-kon Aftermath and beyond

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 15:21:33 GMT

The past weekend was AMAZING!!

A-kon convention is awesome!! Spending a whole weekend (3 days) without parental supervision and with 3 of the best friends a person could ever have top the cake!!

Despite all the... near death experiences we had... (rain+nite+3 blind ppl and 1 asleep = scariness)

I finally met, saw, stared and took a billion pictures of An Cafe (San San's obsession that I've heard about all year in Bradford's class.) They were pretty!!

The only down side was the huge lines that seemed never ending... stood in WAY too many lines for (concert <= 1st one ever gone to, cosplay <= that was -__-, welcome ceremony <= worse thing I've ever experienced, and An Cafe's autographs)

And walked a billion miles!! My heels will never be the same again!! T.T So tired even now.

Funny thing is... didn't really do anything anime related. Bascially shopped, more shopped, stared at An Cafe, stood in line, nearly dead a billion times, took insane number of photos, and ate. O.o

Pics on facebook!! They pretty. =)

And now... tomorrow I'll be leaving for China till mid July.

Getting to go to Tibet, Xi-an, and mountain climbing and visiting relatives!! So awesomes plus I'm going alone!! SWEETNESS!!

Oh and shopping... can't forget the shopping...

Shopping list as of now...

San San and Chery = Fahrenheit, S.H.E. plus more music of 'scary,pale ppl'

Rachel = anime

K = something cool and interesting

Nathan = your bday gift... -_-

Anyone else want something? Leave a message I'll check it while I'm in China.

Signing off...

Lyn

It's here... then it's gone

Mon, 28 May 2007 00:07:09 GMT

Wow!!

After four long years... long sleepless nights, torturous tests, staying in Wuellner's room, laughing, craming with friends and alone, reading novels for the next day's english quiz, etc...

It's finally here. The moment... that '4 seconds' when the stage is yours... to walk across and get that diploma. Literally it was four seconds. Graduation took less than 2 hours to get 800+ people across stage, and a bunch of other stuff. =) Solely impressed.

Still... not sure if it has hit yet. The bittersweetness... the fact I'm no longer a high school student but a college freshman. O.O Just typing that feels soo... surreal. Not sure why. Now... once again this summer I'll return to China after 4 years. I went back before start of high school, now I return after high school graduation... it feels like a full circle.

And finally it's time to journey on. The next step.. the step of being legal... doing stuff for myself. WOW! I still feels... like a dream. Like I'll wake up tomorrow and realize come August I'll be going back to Falls, volunteering at Eagle Express to get more volunteer hours. When instead... come August I'll still be on vacation. The strangness of it all... will it ever sink in?

Nah.

I doubt fifty years from now...

Maybe then.

Signing off.

Four Years

Sat, 19 May 2007 15:21:39 GMT

It's really over.

Four long years and high school is really over. Wow!!

Freshman year seemed like yesterday. Back when I couldn't find anything. Back when everything seemed soo big and scary. Come next Sunday... get to walk the stage at the Berry Center. O.o

So many things lasts... but I won't dwell on them. There's nothing I can do about it but have an awesome summer than officially become independent. O.o

Maybe Viri's right. It is a little scary.

Must cut it short... time to go watch plays. =)

Nice to be sooo free. =)

-_-

Wed, 16 May 2007 02:38:18 GMT

I normally stray away from emo and thought provoking posts these days. They result in too many mixed comments. But there's always that one blue moon.

Why can't they just once say congrats? Seriously... I know they want me to succeed, not be egotistic (though I have become that), and set my bars higher... but for once can't I have normal parental units? Can't they for once show some affection? Sure 18 years of steel is hard to break. I mean just in the last four years I've learned to show emotions/hug people. I've seriously never done that before. As unhumane as it may sound. Reason I don't do well with phone conversations/ emotions. It's that barricade... the way I was raised.

I mean when I do horribly they yell and scold. When I do good, they want more. Will it ever be enough? I already set the bar high... does it have to be pushed higher? I can be a millionaire and probably never impress them. They think my life won't affect them. Will it end up being materialistic things/ cutting the ropes?

And I hate how they think I disrespect them/look down at them. >.< I mean... am I that easily misunderstood? I've realized my mind works in a different way from most people. 99% of people can never tell when I'm joking. I know I appear serious/stressed out half the time. My idea of fun is really screwed. My sacrasm is very hard to detect. My humor is very... twisted. Maybe I should try unscrambling my mind or acting normal... maybe it'll make things easier.

Maybe I should create a new mask in college. Destroy my present image. Maybe one reason I choose to go to school in a different state... somewhere no one I know will be going to.

And people think I can't act. I laugh.

Maybe I shouldn't have given up drama/theatre. All due to society's definition of movie stars. >.<

^.^

Sun, 06 May 2007 23:53:09 GMT

Prom and project prom were (as Amanda puts is) uh-maz-ing!!

Mega loads of photos on facebook. I've never taken soo many pictures in one night before.

Alot of first...

First time I have to honesty say I enjoyed a dance. =D

First time ever getting hair professionally done. The lady did an incredible job. Overly impressed considering I chopped majority of it off.

First time ever doing full makeup and get fake nails. Very hard to type by the way. The ladies who did them were so cute!! Viet ladies... reminded me of my grandmother. Rachel and I adored them. =)

Limo bus turned out really nice.... exceeded my exceptations by alot!! Rainbow lodge was nice. And it didn't rain!! BIG plus!!

The movies and books are right. Prom is a night of memories. Really is one of the best nights of high school. ^.^